( optimistic, finn. she couldn't survive on jakku for as long as she did without holding out hope for a better tomorrow, or at least a better one than today.

and then he takes her hand, and some part of her stomach flutters -- is it something she ate? she hopes she's not getting sick. that would be terrible. but even then she can't help the smile that breaks out over her face. )

That would be-- ( great. it would be amazing. her earnest, eager face betrays how much she wants that. but he's finn. he's with the resistance. she can't take him away from that. her face falls, even as she clutches his hand tighter in her's. ) But we can't. You have to help the Resistance, Finn. I can't-- you can't leave them for me.

( even if she wants to, even if nothing else sounds as appealing as running away with finn to find her family. )