[It's not said meanly, though-- more amused than anything else.]
Anakin, I've been surviving on my own outside of the Temple now for months. I mean... I won't lie, the first few weeks were tough. I definitely got swindled a couple of times before I got the hang of things. ... But I'm fine now. Really.
[That is a small white lie-- she isn't sure she'll ever be used to being a civilian. But right now it feels like she's as used to it as she's ever going to get. So. That counts, right?]
[Ugh. It almost slipped out. Old habits die hard.]
... I'm sorry I couldn't give you the reassurance you were looking for.
[Because that's what this call was about, right?
Almost intuitively, for the first time since she left the Temple, she allows herself to reach for him along their bond-- almost just to see if she still can. She half doesn't expect it to work.]
[ He close his eyes and reach for her as well, letting their bond comfort him for a moment. The instant she withdraws he feels her absence tenfold. ]
I wasn't-- [ Who's he kidding. Even if he didn't realize it himself at the time, he called her for exactly this. ] I should be the one giving you reassurances.
[ He thinks about that for a moment. Not leaving the Order for a temporary mission but forever. With Padme and Ahsoka at his side. Another casual daydream of his. Yes, let's continue this casual indulgence. ]
Someone has to watch your left flank. I lost count of the number of times I told you to keep that side tight.
Yeah, about that... you might find my fighting style has changed a bit since you last saw it, on account of the whole... not having my lightsabers anymore... thing.
[ Awkward but mostly conflicted as to just how much help he should be giving Ahsoka, as a Jedi and as her former Master. ]
I'm only a call away. And once this war's over, we can talk more. [ He sounds unsure about that last part. But he won't let the mistake he made with his mother, losing contact with her, happen here. ]
We're not suppose to talk to civilians about the war effort. That goes through official channels.
[ He almost sounded official. Which means he has to ruin it now. ]
But no, no progress. Our last attempt, we fought Dooku again. Nothing came of it. We only learned ... Dooku is involved in creating the clones. We don't know why but the Council has made it a secret, from everyone. Even Chancellor Palpatine.
[ He's spitting out his words with disdain and barely concealed disgust. The Order hasn't been exactly been making good decisions lately and this is just another one to be compounded. ]
Anakin-- it's been three years! Isn't that already long enough? Everyone thought it would be over in a few months. But somehow the Separatists are always one step ahead of us. Always! Doesn't that seem weird to you?
Dooku has spies everywhere. Not just that, he has support. The battles we fight aren't the only ones that are happening. I know it feels like it'll never end, but it will and then.
[ He stops and grits his teeth. She's never even been a Jedi not at war. She's never had the good times it came with being the galaxy's peacemakers. He can only hope that the war's conclusion will bring her back into the fold. ]
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[It's not said meanly, though-- more amused than anything else.]
Anakin, I've been surviving on my own outside of the Temple now for months. I mean... I won't lie, the first few weeks were tough. I definitely got swindled a couple of times before I got the hang of things. ... But I'm fine now. Really.
[That is a small white lie-- she isn't sure she'll ever be used to being a civilian. But right now it feels like she's as used to it as she's ever going to get. So. That counts, right?]
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[ He sighs. Maybe he shouldn't have called. ]
It gets worst the further out the Core you are. Wherever you go, just let me know- Let me know you're out there. Obi-Wan's driving me crazy already.
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[Ugh. It almost slipped out. Old habits die hard.]
... I'm sorry I couldn't give you the reassurance you were looking for.
[Because that's what this call was about, right?
Almost intuitively, for the first time since she left the Temple, she allows herself to reach for him along their bond-- almost just to see if she still can. She half doesn't expect it to work.]
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I wasn't-- [ Who's he kidding. Even if he didn't realize it himself at the time, he called her for exactly this. ] I should be the one giving you reassurances.
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[Then her voice changes again, back to something lighter, more teasing and familiar, because being too serious for too long hurts.]
You could always come with me, if you miss me so much.
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Someone has to watch your left flank. I lost count of the number of times I told you to keep that side tight.
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[ There's an uncomfortable silence that he force himself to fill with: ]
All the more reason someone should watch your back.
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Well... I wouldn't say no to the extra help.
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I'm only a call away. And once this war's over, we can talk more. [ He sounds unsure about that last part. But he won't let the mistake he made with his mother, losing contact with her, happen here. ]
I'll need a break from Obi-Wan's nagging.
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No progress on that front then, I'm guessing.
Did you know it's practically impossible to get un-biased reports down here? It's like the longer the war drags on, the less information we get.
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[ He almost sounded official. Which means he has to ruin it now. ]
But no, no progress. Our last attempt, we fought Dooku again. Nothing came of it. We only learned ... Dooku is involved in creating the clones. We don't know why but the Council has made it a secret, from everyone. Even Chancellor Palpatine.
[ He's spitting out his words with disdain and barely concealed disgust. The Order hasn't been exactly been making good decisions lately and this is just another one to be compounded. ]
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Anakin...
Does something feel... wrong about the war, to you?
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I don't know. Maybe something else is going on. We're not going to let this war go on long enough to find out what it is.
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[ He stops and grits his teeth. She's never even been a Jedi not at war. She's never had the good times it came with being the galaxy's peacemakers. He can only hope that the war's conclusion will bring her back into the fold. ]
It'll end. Trust me.
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[Never mind that he'd just been saying the same thing to her.]
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... Ha. Cheeky.