[ he looks at her. he doesn't know if she's not realizing the reality of the situation - them being on the millennium falcon, being hunted by the first order, being trapped between a war with the legendary han solo - or if she's just that optimistic.
but for once, this is not bad of an idea. it would take them so far away from the whole conflict. them, not just finn alone. he couldn't... bare the thought of just leaving her in the middle of all that. like he can't stand the thought of leaving her back on jakku, if that ever comes to it.
finn press his lips into a thin line and nods his approval. ]
I like that. That's a great idea. You don't have to go back on Jakku and just wait for them. [ he catches rey's hand in his. ] We're on the Millennium Falcon. And we could go any where after Han drops us off. Any where you want!
( optimistic, finn. she couldn't survive on jakku for as long as she did without holding out hope for a better tomorrow, or at least a better one than today.
and then he takes her hand, and some part of her stomach flutters -- is it something she ate? she hopes she's not getting sick. that would be terrible. but even then she can't help the smile that breaks out over her face. )
That would be-- ( great. it would be amazing. her earnest, eager face betrays how much she wants that. but he's finn. he's with the resistance. she can't take him away from that. her face falls, even as she clutches his hand tighter in her's. ) But we can't. You have to help the Resistance, Finn. I can't-- you can't leave them for me.
( even if she wants to, even if nothing else sounds as appealing as running away with finn to find her family. )
[ for a sweet moment, he looked at her face and forgot that there was a giant lie lying between then and that if he just squeezed her hand back - which he did - that everything would be fine. they would truly, for the first time, have a life that is their own.
then it disappears with her smile and he feels like the wind is forced out of his lungs. the Resistance, of course. his face feels warm and he inhales again. ]
Right. But I could. I could! I could leave it, if you want to go find your family. We'll get BB-8 to the Resistance base, that I know about. The one that I talked about, you remember that right?
[ a nervous chuckle is masked as an optimistic one, and he squeezes her hand because the future is so damn bright when his hand is in hers. ]
( oh, she wants to -- something in her soars when he says then we'll go. finn is the only person in the universe who has ever made her feel cared about. she cherishes that, it means more than she has the words for.
but )
I couldn't do that. I can't take you away. ( he surely belongs there, the big deal of the resistance. and it's selfish of her to want to make him leave, to go with her. she wants nothing more; with finn by her side, rey is certain that everything would be better. but she can't.
and it hurts. )
I want you to come with me. But the Resistance is doing good work. You're doing the right thing. It just---
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but for once, this is not bad of an idea. it would take them so far away from the whole conflict. them, not just finn alone. he couldn't... bare the thought of just leaving her in the middle of all that. like he can't stand the thought of leaving her back on jakku, if that ever comes to it.
finn press his lips into a thin line and nods his approval. ]
I like that. That's a great idea. You don't have to go back on Jakku and just wait for them. [ he catches rey's hand in his. ] We're on the Millennium Falcon. And we could go any where after Han drops us off. Any where you want!
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and then he takes her hand, and some part of her stomach flutters -- is it something she ate? she hopes she's not getting sick. that would be terrible. but even then she can't help the smile that breaks out over her face. )
That would be-- ( great. it would be amazing. her earnest, eager face betrays how much she wants that. but he's finn. he's with the resistance. she can't take him away from that. her face falls, even as she clutches his hand tighter in her's. ) But we can't. You have to help the Resistance, Finn. I can't-- you can't leave them for me.
( even if she wants to, even if nothing else sounds as appealing as running away with finn to find her family. )
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then it disappears with her smile and he feels like the wind is forced out of his lungs. the Resistance, of course. his face feels warm and he inhales again. ]
Right. But I could. I could! I could leave it, if you want to go find your family. We'll get BB-8 to the Resistance base, that I know about. The one that I talked about, you remember that right?
[ a nervous chuckle is masked as an optimistic one, and he squeezes her hand because the future is so damn bright when his hand is in hers. ]
Then we'll go!
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but )
I couldn't do that. I can't take you away. ( he surely belongs there, the big deal of the resistance. and it's selfish of her to want to make him leave, to go with her. she wants nothing more; with finn by her side, rey is certain that everything would be better. but she can't.
and it hurts. )
I want you to come with me. But the Resistance is doing good work. You're doing the right thing. It just---
( it wouldn't be right. )