They needed Wynne. Or - anyone. Cooler heads prevailed when legs found themselves cracked open by enchanted traps, and Briar had a temper both indomitable and presently a hinderance. She needed her hands to stop shaking and for Alistair's brow to stop sweltering.
"If you didn't tell me then it was the fever."
With a sharp tug she set the bandages around his leg then pressed the flat of her palm against the space between Alistair's shoulder. Enough pressure that it wouldn't hurt but leave him little choice but to ease the weight off his shoulders and against her lap. She wasn't good at this - Alistair wore his heart on his sleeve while all she had given anyone lately is anger. The words didn't come as easily as she wanted.
And people called Alistair obtuse.
"I- Sorry."
Whether she apologized for her rough manner or slow approach to affection was unclear. With one hand she drew slow circles on Alistair's temple with chapped, cool skin of her knuckles while her other hand dipped a cloth into a basin of water, wringing it out to dab at his brow.
"But if I have such sway then maybe I can command you to rest."
He laid back on her touch. Alistair is malleable and yet firm; her words, her touch has changed him and he holds them on an alter none can touch. She is his own personal chantry. No, he doesn't actually think that. He's not very good at words and crafting them is as much of a challenge as trying to barter with an Orlesian. But he feels it.
The words sits heavy on his tongue, and weighs him down lest his lofty ideals and too naive heart carries him off. They come out too simple. He blurts them out and sheepishly wish he could have done better than a simple, blunt compliment. It is the best he can do, being brought up in a barn and all. She's here still, he must be doing something right.
He smiled at her apology and closed his eyes, briefly, at her cool hand.
"Ah, you're apologizing. It must be a fevered dream," he chuckled and moved to catch her fingers with his, drawing their palms together on his chest.
"Normally, I would say your wish is my command but if these are - oh, I don't know - my last hours before I stupidly die from a trap after fighting an archdemon! ...Then I would really really prefer to spend them awake, with you. Or I suppose I can come back as a spirit and ...do that."
"Andraste's quim will scorch to the flames before I allow you to speak like that."
Briar bit back, her voice harsh and the grip she held around Alistair's shoulders tightening to a vice-like hold as she gathered him to allow for the bulk of his weight to fall on his lap. They had come this far, and damned if should would allow the lucky blow of a barbarian's trap to take from this hard won love that preserved and grounded whatever humanity she cleaved to.
"Come," She took his good arm and guided it over her shoulders, "I'll carry you on horseback or on my feet to the nearest village if it'll cure you of these dramatics."
He has the nerve in him still to chuckle at her harshness. He'll later attribute it to her pushing him past his insecurities, most of them anyway. A bastard can never have too much of that, but it's better with her. He's braver and bolder with her, even with the little things.
"Oh in that case, hop to it, Hero of Ferelden. It's already spreading. You wouldn't want to have a dramatic one legged, one armed man as a husband. You might as well be married to an Orlesian!" He paused then stifled the sudden tension in his shoulders with an awkward laugh. They haven't really talked about marriage. Love, yes. Marriage, no. Not really. Something left for later, if they survived.
It would make sense to ask rather than assume. He could feel Wynne's mix of amusement and disapproval from where ever she was. Maker, he would never hear the end of this if she knew.
"If... " He drags it on with an inhale through his teeth, stalling for time until his thought rushes out. "If that's what you want. Not the crippled Orlesian part. But you know."
The sound of his laughter washes over her like a balm; flattening raised hackles and taking the tension away from her tightly squared up shoulders. Briar so badly wanted to please him, to understand the more subtle art of bringing comfort to the wounded and dispirited. Noblesse oblige really was a double-edged blade that fashioned her into this bold creature, but rendered her rather deaf to a capacity to empathize with others. Even the people she loved the most.
"I'd sooner marry the dog."
Her voice pushed reedy through her tightening throat as she pressed her forehead against his until her head fell heavily against his shoulder. Dammit, if only he knew the grace in which he expressed his love was one she envied.
"It's everything I want." The cold, damp soil soaked through her knees where they sat, awkwardly to one another and yet she never felt warmer a day in her life then now.
As much as he wanted it to be, it was never going to be perfect. He is hurt, poisoned, metal teeth leaving yet another batch of scars. She is weary and worried, blunt and carrying a weight that found its way to her shoulders. They are cold and the taint in their blood, the faint song that comes at night reminds them they are cursed. There might never be a garden to harvest flowers in or little feet pitter-pattering along wooden floors. But they have this, and it's as good as any. He couldn't wish for more, has no reason to.
"Well, I have been called a dog at times. So, I suppose I'll need to ...thank Morrigan for calling me that more times than necessary? Maker, you make me want to do the strangest things."
Alistair's smile is bright and warm, even as cold sweat drips down his neck. His clammy hand cups her face, brings them cheek to cheek, and he breathlessly says, "My love, my everything is yours to have."
The Wardens live such short lives, it seems fitting that they bind themselves to each other on the field, on the run and doing their gifted duty. Where else would they find the time?
"You will not leave me alone in this world." She pressed the words tight through clenched teeth.
Boots sinking into the wet, muddy earth as she shouldered the bulk of his weight. Half-dragging him towards the nag of well-ridden courser tied to a fat oak on the borders of their camp. The chance it would fall dead before either of them was evident in the low bend to its back and how it hung its head, but damned if Briar wouldn't will it to make at least half the journey necessary to keep Alistair breathing.
"We never let ourselves sacrifice so much that I should let it end here." Her voice was hoarse, desperate as she all but muscled Alistair foot-first into the well worn iron stirrup with her legs bowing under his weight. All of even her impressive strength going into the slim chance of his salvation.
"And leave you alone in this world? Perish the thought," he says before she manhandles him up to his feet.
Alistair is unhelpful; his body is numb and his mind is muddled, elfroot is holding off the bleeding but it's not making his body any less heavy - for him, her and the horse. He does make feeble attempts but his limbs swings about, out of range to the intended target. He causes more problems than not, nearly tripping over her feet, nearly tripping Briar herself, startling the horse to back away and nearly missing his steps. It's with incredible effort that he manages to hoist himself up on the horse.
"I will come back as a spirit and haunt your steps," his already quiet voice trails off as he makes a grab at the reins and misses, tragically.
"Ooh, yes. I know," his voice pitches before it falls back into a murmur, "I'll throw flowers at you when you forget how to smile. You'll never know what hit you. Haha."
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"If you didn't tell me then it was the fever."
With a sharp tug she set the bandages around his leg then pressed the flat of her palm against the space between Alistair's shoulder. Enough pressure that it wouldn't hurt but leave him little choice but to ease the weight off his shoulders and against her lap. She wasn't good at this - Alistair wore his heart on his sleeve while all she had given anyone lately is anger. The words didn't come as easily as she wanted.
And people called Alistair obtuse.
"I- Sorry."
Whether she apologized for her rough manner or slow approach to affection was unclear. With one hand she drew slow circles on Alistair's temple with chapped, cool skin of her knuckles while her other hand dipped a cloth into a basin of water, wringing it out to dab at his brow.
"But if I have such sway then maybe I can command you to rest."
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The words sits heavy on his tongue, and weighs him down lest his lofty ideals and too naive heart carries him off. They come out too simple. He blurts them out and sheepishly wish he could have done better than a simple, blunt compliment. It is the best he can do, being brought up in a barn and all. She's here still, he must be doing something right.
He smiled at her apology and closed his eyes, briefly, at her cool hand.
"Ah, you're apologizing. It must be a fevered dream," he chuckled and moved to catch her fingers with his, drawing their palms together on his chest.
"Normally, I would say your wish is my command but if these are - oh, I don't know - my last hours before I stupidly die from a trap after fighting an archdemon! ...Then I would really really prefer to spend them awake, with you. Or I suppose I can come back as a spirit and ...do that."
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Briar bit back, her voice harsh and the grip she held around Alistair's shoulders tightening to a vice-like hold as she gathered him to allow for the bulk of his weight to fall on his lap. They had come this far, and damned if should would allow the lucky blow of a barbarian's trap to take from this hard won love that preserved and grounded whatever humanity she cleaved to.
"Come," She took his good arm and guided it over her shoulders, "I'll carry you on horseback or on my feet to the nearest village if it'll cure you of these dramatics."
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"Oh in that case, hop to it, Hero of Ferelden. It's already spreading. You wouldn't want to have a dramatic one legged, one armed man as a husband. You might as well be married to an Orlesian!" He paused then stifled the sudden tension in his shoulders with an awkward laugh. They haven't really talked about marriage. Love, yes. Marriage, no. Not really. Something left for later, if they survived.
It would make sense to ask rather than assume. He could feel Wynne's mix of amusement and disapproval from where ever she was. Maker, he would never hear the end of this if she knew.
"If... " He drags it on with an inhale through his teeth, stalling for time until his thought rushes out. "If that's what you want. Not the crippled Orlesian part. But you know."
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"I'd sooner marry the dog."
Her voice pushed reedy through her tightening throat as she pressed her forehead against his until her head fell heavily against his shoulder. Dammit, if only he knew the grace in which he expressed his love was one she envied.
"It's everything I want." The cold, damp soil soaked through her knees where they sat, awkwardly to one another and yet she never felt warmer a day in her life then now.
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"Well, I have been called a dog at times. So, I suppose I'll need to ...thank Morrigan for calling me that more times than necessary? Maker, you make me want to do the strangest things."
Alistair's smile is bright and warm, even as cold sweat drips down his neck. His clammy hand cups her face, brings them cheek to cheek, and he breathlessly says, "My love, my everything is yours to have."
The Wardens live such short lives, it seems fitting that they bind themselves to each other on the field, on the run and doing their gifted duty. Where else would they find the time?
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Boots sinking into the wet, muddy earth as she shouldered the bulk of his weight. Half-dragging him towards the nag of well-ridden courser tied to a fat oak on the borders of their camp. The chance it would fall dead before either of them was evident in the low bend to its back and how it hung its head, but damned if Briar wouldn't will it to make at least half the journey necessary to keep Alistair breathing.
"We never let ourselves sacrifice so much that I should let it end here." Her voice was hoarse, desperate as she all but muscled Alistair foot-first into the well worn iron stirrup with her legs bowing under his weight. All of even her impressive strength going into the slim chance of his salvation.
"Not like this."
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Alistair is unhelpful; his body is numb and his mind is muddled, elfroot is holding off the bleeding but it's not making his body any less heavy - for him, her and the horse. He does make feeble attempts but his limbs swings about, out of range to the intended target. He causes more problems than not, nearly tripping over her feet, nearly tripping Briar herself, startling the horse to back away and nearly missing his steps. It's with incredible effort that he manages to hoist himself up on the horse.
"I will come back as a spirit and haunt your steps," his already quiet voice trails off as he makes a grab at the reins and misses, tragically.
"Ooh, yes. I know," his voice pitches before it falls back into a murmur, "I'll throw flowers at you when you forget how to smile. You'll never know what hit you. Haha."